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May 2009 
Lonliness and Trembling
Posted on Aug 29th, 2007
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T
T
Well, I'm back- but the year long blog Eyes in the Pine is over. This time, I'm just going to journal, really, and not promote the site in any way- not that I did much in that regard previously, but still, I was writing often with an audience, or potential audience, in mind.
So, now- I'm needing to assimilate and ground all the energies I've played and struggled with over this past totally bizarre year. If you don't think so go back in the archives of Eyes. Yeah, it got real weird.
I'm having major depression, as I have on and off all my life- I need to write and move this stuck energy. Somehow. Or I will die, or continue wanting to anyway. And being so alone- no job and no social circle- I need some kind of connection with others- even if it be yours truly- only a number on a screen- yet as pathetic as that may be, I'll take anything like it. Beats the hell out of going to a bar and drinking with strangers because the lonliness is so hard.
Which I did just the other night, and next time, I'd rather go out in the dark woods and pray.
For me, for you, and for all those lonely people.
So, now- I'm needing to assimilate and ground all the energies I've played and struggled with over this past totally bizarre year. If you don't think so go back in the archives of Eyes. Yeah, it got real weird.
I'm having major depression, as I have on and off all my life- I need to write and move this stuck energy. Somehow. Or I will die, or continue wanting to anyway. And being so alone- no job and no social circle- I need some kind of connection with others- even if it be yours truly- only a number on a screen- yet as pathetic as that may be, I'll take anything like it. Beats the hell out of going to a bar and drinking with strangers because the lonliness is so hard.
Which I did just the other night, and next time, I'd rather go out in the dark woods and pray.
For me, for you, and for all those lonely people.
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I see you. I hear you. You are not alone.
Your blog post touched me !! .. Like 'luna mer' said .. “I see you” .. “I hear you” .. WE are not alone !!
I look forward to exploring more of your blog at another time ….
BTW .. I like your photography !!
Hang in there, T.
Where are you now T? Geographically I mean.
Hi I want to say , I feel u. Be strong and know u r never alone. The creator/s is always with us; your ancesters and guardians (angels) are always with you . If you need help ask for it. ask for strenght and guidance. I understand. I feel alone too. No mother , no father, no husband, seemingly no family, no social life, just me and all my thoughts, loves, hates, and concerns. But I am OK and you are OK and blessed. We have Life and opportunity for new beginnings every minute, every day!
Peace, Cheryl